Have you experienced an emotional situation where you’re at the eye of a stupidity typhoon, leaving you seemingly hopeless.

I can’t tell if I’m angry that my peers ignore me or happy that the world is going to shit.

Stay home they say but I have no home to keep, I have a damn job but no home… Im steady trying to get my life together and the world around me is shattering. Fear with a ridiculous smile, a pandemic, a virus that we’re treating like a germ. People’s stupidity… I don’t know why I’m so mad. I should break a window and steal food but I just had my teeth, or what’s left of my teeth removed so I can start again. So I can die with a smile on my face but now I am one of those zombies wandering the streets.

I have nowhere to go and I only get hotel when I can work. Tonight will be a war on my heart.

Forgive me I’m still floating from the dental procedure and I’m upset that I’m sitting here alone.

Social services have failed me, my peers failed me and the world… I don’t know. I was fortunate to have stayed at the hotel but I’m out of funds now. I am a homeless fool. I want to start fires. I want to break into buildings, I want to kick someone’s ass, I want my home.

For as much as I’m rambling I am at a loss for words. I don’t know what to do or where to go…..

For help.