“Go to sleep little baby”

It’s all a dream 🤣 what a life.

I’m riding home, to my hotel room… I neither sad or angry. I am thankful to be working and afford shelter from the world. Which is so strange right now that I need a constant reality check.

In any case as life changes around me, I am changing my situation. I believe that my struggling has been my strength. I am no less disturbed bit I am not freaking out for the same reasons as anyone else.

Every now and then a great movement rushes over me and I find myself weeping. I’m not a fan of weeping but it has its benefits; a sort of decompression. I aim to control my rollercoaster throughout the past but this is out of my control, where I can only delay the inevitable.

There are still days where I wish I had no feeling at all but I am thankful for my trials, for they have brought me to my knees and tears to my eyes when I needed them most.

I’m walking now so I should stop trying to write but I want to share this last thing.

We’re gonna be okay …there are some dark days ahead but something beautiful will come from it.

There’s a reason we’re in Deadwater.