Hello Notes.

Protest here in Portland upset me but more so the people who are against the protests.

I don’t claim to be a protester nor do I have any affiliations. I am one ‘black’ man riding on the back of a turtle.

On the Portland Police department FB page, someone called me delusional… This i already know, for the way I speak and wishing that a simple speech could ease all the world. I know that is not the case but that doesn’t stop my longing for peace.

To be honest, I don’t give two fucks about what’s going on. No one gives a fuck about me. I’ve fought my own battles, paid a hell of a price just to have the frame of mind that I do.

Anyways. I gotta go to work now.

Some one asked on that site “what are you doing to help”

This is my reply:

Bergeson Kymberlee I do exactly what I’m supposed to do, BE A ‘BLACK’ MAN. I sat amidst the crowd during gassing when they all ran… I stood up against officers when they threatened harm and demanded not to be moved, that I was a man and they will treat me as such. I stood toe toe with an officer who moved me against my will after he dared me to strike. And on each occasion I did this without being violent, when I have every right to be. I stood to clear ‘press’ from the streets so I could listen to speakers speak and was arrested for being in the street, where you there to stop them from arresting the most peaceful person out there? So don’t tell me ‘ish about my talking BS, when some of you won’t make a stand at all or run when officers charge with the intent to do harm. I am delusional, I am a fool and I’m still the most positive force out there. I’ve sat on many occasions, leading by example. I dare to say some of those protest remained calm because of my presence. After sitting through gas one night I stood at the door of the JC speaking my BS and officers came out to distribute bottles of water… And and willing to bet they were about to come sit withe had Feds not continued with their burning gas attack. Do I like what’s going on? Not one bit. I’m pissed… I’m hurt.. I’m enraged because I know I’m delusional… And everyone is still screaming BLACK LIVES MATTER with no regard for the black man sitting calmly in meditation. However my delusion may be… I sit out there because, either people will sit with me or we all will fight and I have every right to burn the whole city if I want. But I choose to sit and let the Spirit move me. What are you doing to help me do what I do for you.