Hello notes

The time is 19:18, I’ve just started the film ‘Unbreakable’ and deactivated my Facebook account.

It’s my day off but I haven’t done much of anything… I tried to be creative but the movement isn’t there. I’m experiencing a moment where I feel inadequate, that might not be the correct word but it’s a struggle just to stretch now, physically and mentally.

Anyways… I’ve been blessed to had a few sales from my Etsy store but I haven’t put any effort into advertising or revamping my own site. Not the best way to grow a business I know but much as I need money, it has never been a focal point until these last few years.

I am self motivated, self taught etc etc… So, when I’m up, I’m up but the down times last much longer. Is that bipolar? I haven’t been checked and it’s kinda late in life to be add a label now…. Thats probably just me copping out.

I don’t expect a response… I turn off Facebook so not to expose myself more than I already have to my idiot peers… Don’t get me wrong… I am the fool here.

Blah blah… I just need to be open and real, somewhere. I don’t date and much as we try, my alleged children are kept at a distance. So I’m really not close to anyone. There are no shoulders for me to weep on or lips for whispering all is well at midnight.

Forgive me notes… This isn’t a pity party, It’s just easier to process my thoughts this way.